Before you read about my old pain know this
its all started with in middle school i read kurts journal the whole thingand
he mentioned hypnogogia and i head strange in between sleep and awake
state of awareness trance = hallucinated so i heard whispers in middle
school hallucinated but couldnt understand what the voices said unless
it was my name the spoke very unclear until my water fast
in fact you can practice meditation train with faith to open up hearing voices thats the only reason why i think meditations fun cause of esp
i wanted to be bipolar just to hallucinate and bipolar cause kurt was labled that lol (in middle school) i only had a few hallucinated moments back then but i love kurt lol he made black sheep lables like that cool which i was like the unpopular kids are still cool group not doing stuff for attention but i do these info shares cause of i wanna help inspire people
i actually was mostly very depressed starting in 6th grade the first grade of middle school
black sheep is slang for out cast
i used to think a ton of suicide daily and was self harming...
i cut love hate into my arm
cause i wanted love but i hated me cause
after sex stuff i fell in love with my first gf emma
shes gorgeous i think she marylin monroe reincarnated alot
but she broke up with me cause she wanted to try boys instead
not
blaming her but alot of people around that time when they took anger
out on me like im omega or a scapegoat i acted like a martyr alot and
self sacrificed to please them cause it sees like they all tried on
purpose to hurt me by yelling
( i had daddy issues cause of spanks)
i
got over alll this stuff later though (i write tips for happiness found
and kept on this site to try to save anyone who needs saving)
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