Wont explain it all not even half of it so you get the point its not a competition of who had more pain but trust me theres no reason to loose hope in lifes very greatest when ditching fear based beliefs

will write more later just my conclusion and how hard voices can be briefly:

But first:

i say this part first its how i grew up to be a real hero to me too me as an equal and healed

The Great Golden Baby Story

i wanted to bring kurt back to life i thought i should get pregnant to reincarnate him

i was then shown a vision of a great golden baby kurt cobain go in me

later i figured he is me

The Great Golden Baby- Circa Survive (Lyrics)

"The Great Golden Baby" by Circa Survive

Make your move, obvious humor,
desperate and respiratory plight.
Always on, dressed to impress,
I'll be the last one to find out why.

Time takes its toll on us (this changes everything).
I'd be a liar if I denied you at all.
Oh, now that I know,
This changes everything.

I've been trading ideas with intriguing men, and I...
I perceive an honest solution to all of your pride

Time takes its toll on us (this changes everything).
I'd be a liar if I denied you at all.
Oh, now that I know,
This changes everything.
Oh, now that I know...
Oh, now that I know...

And the amplifier screams out loud for the last time.
Wave your hands at the audience as you sink on in.
First chance to hide, you need desperately so, find me, so.

Motion gives up on you in the end.
I'll try my best to be home by then.
You'll see the grace we had,
She'll never have,
You'll never have. (? "you're life without me" kurt says as a higher self ghost <3 )

I'm going home but my own way.
I'm going home by my own...
I'm going home but my own way.
I'm going home by my own..

I would really love if you'd sit him down.
I would really love if you'd sit him down.
I would really love if you'd pull this thread.
I would really love if you'd pull this thread.
I would really love if you'd sit him down.
I would really love if you'd sit him down.
I would really love if you'd pull this thread
I would really love if you'd pull this thread

That song connects to this one cause of the word thread:

Nirvana - Aneurysm (Live at Reading 1992)

Come on over, do the twist, aha
Overdo it and have a fit, aha
Love you so much, it makes me sick, aha
Come on over and do the twist, aha

Beat me out of me (beat it, beat it)
Beat me out of me (beat it, beat it)
Beat me out of me (beat it, beat it)
Beat me out of me (beat it, beat it)
Beat me out of me (beat it, beat it)
Beat me out of me (beat it, beat it)
Beat me out of me (beat it, beat it)
Beat me out of me

Come on over and do the twist, aha
Overdo it and have a fit, aha
Love you so much, it makes me sick, aha
Come on over and shoot the shit, aha

She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart
She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart
She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart
She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart
She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart
She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart
She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart
She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart

my comments:

(sounds also like she keeps a puppet string to my heart)

(beat me up is not higher self nature so its out of me)

being kurt =
he adds a ton of self love by him being him i always loved him

i grew up wanting to be a hero with my love shown

much like jesus i intended to be a savior but i wasnt copying him

This is how i played from as young as i can remember almost... was probably 5 years old during this time

my kid self Ages before age 11

then after that i wanted to save rape victims since the first rape story i heard was so sad...

i wanted to self sacrifice me to save them and lost hope in men

i wanted to be a hero but turned into self hate as my other way to try to not contradict language cause i took it very hard on me i kinda tortured me to worst what if and prepare for the worst much like a self torture army guy just to get immune to the pain (so the army guy wont squeal important stuff to the enemy)

i didnt know how to take being a savior in the easy way until i aged to be like 25 i started easing off of me (not being so hard on me and learning how to say no to the monster than impostors as my romance crushes)

im the hero in a different way now an upgraded more positive bigger heart for me type guy and for all to be love by me too but not everyone is for romance that'd be too hard cause there's literally infinite souls

CAUSE MY LIFE GOT A TON BETTER THATS WHY I WRITE TO SHARE UPLIFTING TIPS REMEMBER THAT dont follow younger me ever follow biggest heart me for all real love and that lifes a huge present

i do not promote rape / abuse of any kind

(i used to be in darkness towards me, but know im not any more):

being for kurt and my mirror other selves... look...for them i stopped torturing me and allowing the out of tune voices to torture me (they taught me to say no to s and m)

but i want to say i love you before i explain

How i grew back bone = Tired of pain from the dark and keeping highest hope to have my dream romances and not getting as much pleasure as real love so i didn't do them a favor by them being better than me in value (cause if they did act sadistic really they arent as rewarded in design than real love does) :

Kurt Cobain on the meaning of Rape Me (Nirvana is Anti-Rape!)

Nirvana - Rape Me (Solo Acoustic + lyrics)

Rape Me (Demo)

link dream here

dont feel bad i dont say this for you to feel bad

What ESP out of tune is like

back when i was haunted.. fear impostor as rihanna hurt me very evil where i thought evil was litterally everyone else...every body'd body one person... one soul in different forms evil soul that was all against me to make my life hell they yold me the meanest things that could ever be said back then etc now i want you to know whenever i feared rihanna was that way to me i did try to send her pain back to stand up for myself but i always always felt my heart break whenever i thought she was in pain cause shes beautifull so i worded this faith spell to have the universe cancel any of my bad magic towards what seemed like satan super evil as riri that wasnt really her but i wasnt in tune back then i was disconnected from love thoughts and yeah i had this go back in time spel to never ever attack rihanna with bad vibes shes the only one i talked to back then so ...shes the only one i sent that too but i never really let me send it to her cause her beauty got me every single time that i wanted her to kiss it better etc

but i never sent hurting vibe s to her i actually prefer it to.....not be rough at all to her though or anyone

sorry i feared the world but it like what hera did to hercules but hera = satan
(she cursed his life cause zues cheated on her and made him)
when i feared every body was one soul a mad wife at me for cheating and it was impossible to win her she was too fucked up cause back them i was fear followwing

just the non upgraded me as jesus type thing on the cross dying to show all love and save everyone

i wanna save people from falling for fear and going that way is satans way so dontg listen to satan aka fear its true

dont be paranoid like the world is evil and your all alone with everyone playing sick secret games with you like too messed up stuff to say

there is a way to tune the radio to the most extreem kindness to match me for others of the love i had for others and now it includes me since my conclusion from my site i will comment i neve rmean to hurt her as rihanna but i tried hurting the devil but there was two rihannas one too evil to realy be her really now theres only her :) the good one that understands to trust me she took her wall down already thanks i will keep spoiling you loook to my higher to not twist me ever i i know language can confuse but see my intentions are always to do the best thing which isnt hurting those who have a heart the heartless arent human they arent even real beings its a divine kind of guidance what fear is for us to know which way not to believe to keep the love thoughts most obvious feel it as best love then thats the best beliefs

if you see the world heartless meaning they could never be able to grow a real heart in metaphor

i see why people mass shoot at schools but i still didnt wanna go that way but look ...i wanted to save everyone and still do theres time for earths heros to be more known with me

i just bet and guess at thats why people do that o know we know why so they dont have to fear follow then there wont be terrorists

i didnt hurt anyone by fist fights for real (being a little kid dont count cause i was confused till a certain age of should i love all))

like i was a little girl very weak and mad at my bro but i felt super bad whenever i wasnt meek so i gained that trait for others qucik

i wondered why the heart break didnt stop others from being mean but i think thats when they lose all hope in the world

tell me the answer to this song title

Tegan and Sara - Where does the good go?

its something felt from your heaven connection

Tegan and sara where does the good grow episode 1 lady fern

i fell asleep while talking to rihanna that it was hard to sleep in the dream cause it was too hot then basically riri turned into the monster again (wanting to hurt me) and i kept not being me by being too jesus self sacrificial and i woke up and i was like wtf thats not me im in peace lol

that was a nightmare lol im glad i changed

for the record its like this song

Nataly Dawn singing Sorry Seems to be the Hardest Word

of when i not aligned with higherly me got frustrated of being in the bed alone even though i had telepathy

the what do i gotta do i took too far in my head of self sacrifice like it seemed ......i had to win the heart to grow in the others but ,,,,it was just fear lol being an impostor of people deceivingly its like that was my kurt without a guitar to smash moment

"for those moments we wanna know why you mention the past you"

i was trying to win their hearts to grow for me "and then did they"

"you've got a nice soul group that expands out to everyone"

i wasnt hard on me in a i have to be hard on them way i was just desperate with alot of love im not saying desperate like to go for romancing anything that walks lol i mean i had a ton of love that i couldnt make physical love so i just had to paint the picture of higher selves help the i didnt word it as anger even though it was frustration it wasnt anger ....it was more like i want them so much....

higher selves and those aligned you can in tune reach....

i slang that as open heart soul connections

but yeah......

they satisfy enough to never be frustrated ;) it was like that song i asked riri in my head back during the anti writes..."show me what love is"

i never recieved the sex vibes from real sex or other wise physical.....in non scary ways ....still havent but astral sex soul sex is the best higher tune it sex without the love buzzes then the magic gone

or is that annoying little bit of pleasure but it dont have to be little bit magic in tune etc lovers ;) i know its proven fact to me sex is magic without magic...dont even go there

im talking best vibes meant to share ;)

Kurt Cobain Dumb KAOS Radio 1990